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Thanks to SoulRiser, founder of School Survival, and xcriteria, forum member at school survival, for their posts in response to my writing about Peter Gray - thanks in particular for the links to the Siegel video and the Couture site - they are both people I wasn't familiar with. I feel a little encouraged by knowing about them. I've been feeling discouraged lately and basically for a long time now... since 2001 or so maybe, so any encouragement helps. I don't get enough emotional support or help with more "task" type things. I feel overwhelmed by everything I want to do and feel a need to do. It is worse now in some ways because my partner has something like carpal tunel or some kind of repetitive strain injury and she can't help me as much as she used to and I, instead, need to help her with things like preparing food, washing dishes, even using the can opener. And we are trying to live in an old warehouse here in Uruguay... I wrote a little about that in my last post. Tonight there was a mouse in this room.... I spent a lot of time on that... and it has been raining on and off since about 2 AM. It is 6 thirty now and I have been up the whole time. When it rains it creates a lot of work for me... My hands were hurting yesterday, I think from too much shoveling. I am trying to make drain ditches to help keep the water out of the house and to keep the mosquitoes from breeding so much around here. I like nature but there is a bit too much of it here... at least for me to handle alone. I am also trying to make some alternative structures like teepees or modified tents - like a tent I can have a fire in... And I started making an outside office for my partner. But there are a lot of problems with it. I thought it would be done in 2 days. It has been over two weeks now. One guy was helping me for a few hours. He said he would be back to help on Monday. That was on a Friday about 17 days ago. Just today he told me he would come again. Very typical of South American culture. I am a little surprised he even called today. He didn't really apologize for not coming or calling two weeks ago. But he did feel guilty about it because he was trying to explain how busy he was that day etc. I didn't tell him how I felt... He is sensitive but doesn't know how to talk about his feelings. He didn't ask me how I felt of course...I left out some details which would help show why it is even worse than I have explained. Like how sad P was, how she was crying the day before he came the last time. I told him all of this. I told him how bad our situation was, how P can't use the computer here when someone is making noise outside, like cutting the grass with a weed whipper, which they seem to love to do here. I feel so uncared about here. So unimportant. Almost invisible. Pretty much like everywhere we go. I think of how Garnier didn't care how I felt when he sexually abused me when I was 18. He didn't value me much more than anyone around here does. All my life I have felt undervalued. Undercared about. It hurts. I'm pretty tired of the pain.

http://www.laurieacouture.com/category/blog/

siegel http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nu7wEr8AnHw

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This site is a place where you can find useful, practical and important information about emotions and life. It contains information about emotional intelligence, some tools and resources, and some new ideas.

The EQI.org site acknowledges the pain and problems in the world, but offers young and old a new direction. It offers encouragement and emotional support. It let's those who feel pain and frustration know they are not alone and are not crazy. A special focus of this site is to provide emotional support to young people who are depressed and are thinking of ending their lives. We believe this site speaks with the most realistic authority on teen depression and suicide. Our expertise comes from countless hours of first-hand communication with teens from many countries.

Our site is helping create a vision of a world which is more livable for children and sensitive people.

EQI.org is also for parents, teachers, educators, psychologists, therapists, attorneys, social workers and school counselors. It is for anyone who wants practical knowledge and resources to help others develop their emotional intelligence and emotional skills. The founder of the site, Steve Hein, was born and raised in the USA but has been traveling around the world since 1997.

Thank you for visiting.

Steve Hein

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Been thiinking of suicide a lot. Partner and I close to breaking up.

Personal writing Nov 27

Oct 27 - Notes from Dominican Republic

Oct 25 - Jerry Mintz on Democratic Schools | Site of a Portuguese guy I met www.estradadarevolucao.com

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“You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war.” A. Einstein

Please visit Jan Hunt's site NaturalChild.org and suppurt her with a donation if it pleases you. (S'il vous plait.) Steve

Uncaring people are slowly killing me. - S. Hein Jan 2013 - After being in the capital of Uruguay too long.