August 16, 2008

I wish you all goodnight and a happy tomorrow

I just got this text message from Heath. He sent it to my email account. Since October of last year he has had no Internet at home because his parents disconnected it.

I got distracted by an huge ad for perfume here in the mall.

Here is the link to the video clip I made of the ad.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y62Sqp2NEVk

And here is something from their website

http://www.escada-fragrances.com/moonsparkle/en/index.html?#

Here is what the web page says about it...

Introducing a new hit fragrance. Moon Sparkle is the essence of summertime, to be enjoyed year round. It's a luscious mix of irresistible sweet red fruits and delicate florals, infused by a sensuously smooth base of creamy woods.

Here is what the company says about another one of its perfumes:

Introducing Incredible Me, the fabulous new fragrance from ESCADA. Discover a sophisticated and exciting fragrance, and enjoy being truly Incredible!

hmmm. Among the many thoughts I have are... how can a smell be sophisticated....?

I also often wonder, does all this stuff make someone a better father or mother?

It is a little had for me to sit here and not go write something on that huge ad. It hurts me to know how young people are being manipulated and lied to all around the world.

I just saw a girl around high school or university age pushing a mop around the floor here. A little girl was playing and the girl stopped and waited, with an impatient, very slighly disapproving look until the father moved the girl out of the way. I feel so sad seeing what corporations are doing to people. Instead of taking a moment to say hello to the little girl, the employee just said nothing, didn't smile. The little girl was an inconvenience to the one who was working and who was most probably afraid of getting in trouble if she stopped work for even 30 seconds. This mall has at least large jewelry and watch store. I didn't question such things much when I was young but now it really hurts me to see how people are manipulated to believed that jewelry, expensive flashy watches, diamonds, perfume etc. some how make us happier. I can understand how revolutons develop and how some people want to destroy the capitalistic advertisments, shops etc. I'm not sure what exactly I can do, except for write like this, take pictures, make videos etc. but I want to help the young people all around the world.

I met two more university students from the USA a little while ago. Sean and Dan. They were trying to hitchhike to Sibiu. Now here comes the girl again I think she has one of the religious bracelets on her that Miheala had and that they sold in the high speed train where people looked so dead.

Now my batteries are running low.. I will try to plug in the laptop. There is a lot I would like to say. I'd also like to snap my fingers and be with someone who really values me. Or who understands me a bit. Or who cares. People are nice here but in the future they will become less friendly, more worried about money and appearances. I wish I could have seen this country before it opened up. I was told there were no cars on the streets. A lot of Romanians, not just the Gypsies, still use horses and carts. I can imagine it before 1989 when the Soviet Union came apart.

People are sometimes surprised when I say I would like to see the USA come apart. So there is not such a concentration of power. Those who have had the powe haven't used it well enough to help the world or even the Americans.

Someone said yesterday that the American people aren't bad. They aren't to blame for what the governnemt does. Instead they said they are victims of the government, much like the Eastern Europeans were victims of the Soviet Union.

I was also thinking that I am a bit like Michael Moore, but a bit different. He seems to be trying to improve things in America. But I sincerely want young people to leave America. To get out as soon as they can and start traveling. To not have jobs in American companies which automatically deduct the government taxes. These taxes fund the people in Washington. They pay for the nuclear weapons. I'm not sure how many books or laptops you could buy with the cost of one nucliear bomb or Stealth Bomber, but it is obviously a lot. I'd like to see America use it's power and wealth to really help people. To make friends and stop killing people and bombing their countries.

Back to Heath. When I got that message I felt this love for him. He is a bit of a son to me. I feel so sad when I think about what has happened to him that I can't think about it too much or I will cry. He will be legally out of teen prison in a few months. I feel guilty for not spending more time with him. Not calling him more often. I'm not sure how much desire he has to get out of the USA or what his plans are when he is 18 but I am considering offering him a ticket to Europe.